05-22-2012, 02:28 PM
Been gone a few days, managed to get platinum trophy on InFamous while my computer was messed up, but now that it is fixed I am back! :D
I am facing a very odd depression that usually doesn't reflect my personality whatsoever, I believe it stems from my general boredom with life. Here I am, successful person with so much to live for with some major accomplishments under my belt, but in the back of my mind I've had crazy ass thoughts of things like; vanishing from the face of the planet, joining the military, doing something stupid on purpose just so I can go to jail/prison, etc.
I don't necessarily want to die, hurt anybody or commit the unthinkable, no no that's not it at all, more like... just feelings like wanting to experience hell just to see, y'know, can I survive or even thrive through it?
I hope its something I can flush when I wake up tomorrow lol
I am facing a very odd depression that usually doesn't reflect my personality whatsoever, I believe it stems from my general boredom with life. Here I am, successful person with so much to live for with some major accomplishments under my belt, but in the back of my mind I've had crazy ass thoughts of things like; vanishing from the face of the planet, joining the military, doing something stupid on purpose just so I can go to jail/prison, etc.
I don't necessarily want to die, hurt anybody or commit the unthinkable, no no that's not it at all, more like... just feelings like wanting to experience hell just to see, y'know, can I survive or even thrive through it?
I hope its something I can flush when I wake up tomorrow lol