DoubleX Music Room

[DoubleX]

I never thought even I could make some music, but I don't know if mine would be too unpleasant to hear, so it takes me some courage to share them here :)

Description

Current version: 3rd(30 Apr 2023)

I just had a rather special dream in my sleep, although I already can't remember every last bit of its details precisely.

During this dream, I was watching a short movie, with its male protagonist suddenly being betrayed by just about everyone around him, including his beloved wife.
Even though it's clear to him that she was forced to do so, he still had to kill her personally to protect his sons and daughters, just as a slightly tragic melody started playing, with him recalling all the good memories with them within his family before this.
The situation ended up with total chaos and he was driven into total madness. Then I just woke up from the dream before I could watch the rest of the movie(that's why the melody's so short), but this doesn't feel like a nightmare to me, despite the fact that I slept quite poorly that night.
Because I want to remember that short melody, I composed this easy, simple and small song based on it, and it's done via 1BITGRADON within 8 hours.

I hope that this song, being my 1st published one, won't be too much of an earsore for too many of you :)

Description

Current version: 1st(26 Sep 2024)

I just suddenly sung this melody out of thin air, so I made this song by 1BITDRAGON within 4 hours before I forget that melody, and "Accepting Sadness" is the 1st name I came into mind :)

Description

Current version: 1st(13 Oct 2024)
It's actually my 1st song but I never published it before, as I didn't like most part of it. However, there are still some parts I like so I overhauled the whole thing quite a bit to hope that it'll be better this time. Nevertheless, it's probably a false hope, so I named this song this way :)

Description

Current version: 1st(17 Oct 2024)
It's the instrumental version of my 1st song with vocals and lyrics, which are about some scenarios probably causing someone to cry until he/she's blind, assuming that it's possible in the first place :(

Description

Current version: 1st(17 Nov 2024)
Just another song based on a melody out of the blue, and "Lost Forever" seems to hit home :)

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Current version: 1st(23 Nov 2024)
Yet another song all about a primitive melody, and "Endless Darkness" might just show hoe repetitive this song feels :(

Description

Current version: 1st(24 Nov 2024)
A music trying to mix 2 crude melodies that might show how I'd feel if my heart were broken :(

Description

Current version: 1st(1 Dec 2024)
While this music might sounds repetitive, this could just show the compulsion of someone indulging in his/her grief even when he/she tries to stop :(

Description

Current version: 1st(1 Dec 2024)
If I feel that all seems to be over, this music might illustrate my emotions under such perceived circumstances X(

Description

Current version: 1st(29 Dec 2024)
When you always make things worse and worse, you might just as well give up everything, and this music could show how it can feel T_T

Description

Current version: 1st(9 Jan 2025)
When you usually end up hurting the others deeply, you'll likely feel hopeless about yourself, and you probably don't want to seek for help in afraid of severely hurting those helping you, so this kind of helpless hopelessness might be illustrated by this music :(

Description

Current version: 1st(30 Apr 2025)
When you secretly love someone already having another lover and their relationship's so good for so long, you may as well just wish them the best and move on... if you can really let go of all this, that is :)

Description

Current version: 1st(12 Jun 2025)
For those trying to belong to groups but always failed to fit in, they may instead learn to be alone for the rest of their lives, provided that they can embrace the loneliness for such a long time :)

Description

Current version: 1st(26 Jun 2025)
Since I enjoying weeping alone so much, I'm so glad that I finally made a sad song that can make me weep so much :)

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Current version: 1st(29 Jun 2025)
Some are so stuck in the past that they'd want a time machine to relive their good memories and rewrite their bad ones, but all they can do is to make use of the present to create their futures :)

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Current version: 1st(10 Jul 2025)
When you think that your lives are mostly out of your control for a long time, you'll likely feel that you're probably beyond redemption, as long as you often keep forcing yourselves to control everything about you so hard :(

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Current version: 1st(13 Jul 2025)
If you become useless to everyone else around you, you can end up as a used up goner being thrown into a rubbish bin, and then they might just forget everything about you forever T_T

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Current version: 1st(27 Jul 2025)
When none of what you do so far ever works at all, you'll tend to feel that you can never get anything right forever, but doing nothing for the rest of your lives isn't an option either X(

[DoubleX]

I just made my 2nd published song, and I hope this one has improved at least a little bit:

Description

Current version: 1st(26 Sep 2024)
I just suddenly sung this melody out of thin air, so I made this song by 1BITDRAGON within 4 hours before I forget that melody, and "Accepting Sadness" is the 1st name I came into mind :)

[DoubleX]

I made my 3rd song a while earlier and 4th one shortly afterwards, so I decide to publish them together now:

Description

Current version: 1st(13 Oct 2024)
It's actually my 1st song but I never published it before, as I didn't like most part of it. However, there are still some parts I like so I overhauled the whole thing quite a bit to hope that it'll be better this time. Nevertheless, it's probably a false hope, so I named this song this way :)

Description

Current version: 1st(17 Oct 2024)
It's the instrumental version of my 1st song with vocals and lyrics, which are about some scenarios probably causing someone to cry until he/she's blind, assuming that it's possible in the first place :(

[DoubleX]

I just made my 5th published song:

Description

Current version: 1st(17 Nov 2024)
Just another song based on a melody out of the blue, and "Lost Forever" seems to hit home :)

[DoubleX]

I just made my 6th and 7th published songs:

Description

Current version: 1st(23 Nov 2024)
Yet another song all about a primitive melody, and "Endless Darkness" might just show hoe repetitive this song feels :(

Description

Current version: 1st(24 Nov 2024)
A music trying to mix 2 crude melodies that might show how I'd feel if my heart were broken :(

[DoubleX]

I just made my 8th and 9th published songs:

Description

Current version: 1st(1 Dec 2024)
While this music might sounds repetitive, this could just show the compulsion of someone indulging in his/her grief even when he/she tries to stop :(

Description

Current version: 1st(1 Dec 2024)
If I feel that all seems to be over, this music might illustrate my emotions under such perceived circumstances X(

[DoubleX]

I just made my 10th published song:

Description

Current version: 1st(29 Dec 2024)
When you always make things worse and worse, you might just as well give up everything, and this music could show how it can feel T_T

[DoubleX]

I just made my 11th published song:

Description

Current version: 1st(9 Jan 2025)
When you usually end up hurting the others deeply, you'll likely feel hopeless about yourself, and you probably don't want to seek for help in afraid of severely hurting those helping you, so this kind of helpless hopelessness might be illustrated by this music :(

[DoubleX]

I just made my 12th published song:

Description

Current version: 1st(30 Apr 2025)
When you secretly love someone already having another lover and their relationship's so good for so long, you may as well just wish them the best and move on... if you can really let go of all this, that is :)

[DoubleX]

I just made my 13th published song:

Description

Current version: 1st(12 Jun 2025)
For those trying to belong to groups but always failed to fit in, they may instead learn to be alone for the rest of their lives, provided that they can embrace the loneliness for such a long time :)